I am Doing Fine But Not Really – My Life in Time of COVID-19

8:41 AM Mayen Acebron 0 Comments




I haven’t been on this blog for a very long time.  So much has happened.

I have a home-based job now which I truly love. For the first time in my work life, I was excited to go back to work after my self- imposed Christmas break. 

 THAT.NEVER.HAPPENED.BEFORE.

I now have my very own home office. It is really small but it looks almost like my favorite Pinterest home office pin (almost).  So I’m so grateful for that!

I started 2020 very hopeful and optimistic. I created vision boards because a lot of people swear by it.

I have a family and home vision board and a career-finances vision board. I have a solid plan (but still flexible) for our Montessori preschool homeschool too. 

 I also started bullet journaling. I was in a really good place.

And for the first couple of months of 2020, everything in our lives is running smoothly. We are doing well in every aspect of our goals.

 We are so inspired and it feels like it will continue to be that way.


Until coronavirus...


Suddenly the world has stopped.  Humans were forced to stay at home.

Businesses were closed. We can’t even go outside without battle gears, such as masks and gloves and whatnot.  

Churches were closed and we begin to attend masses online, setting up our altar and dressing up for the ceremony even though we are just inside the house.

Getting groceries is no longer fun. It used to be one of my favorite things to do but now, I’m scared to go there. Yet I miss it so much!

The busiest streets are now almost deserted and lonely. Similar to how I feel sometimes... lonely.

My hands are getting dry from too much washing and alcohol. But I have to remember that no one died from too much hand washing yet, so I am not complaining.

Besides, dry hands are the least of my worries. All vanity related stuff is not important anymore. 

We cannot just pop in our family’s doorstep anytime we want to. I miss mine and my husband’s side of the family. It feels so strange not to see them like we used to.

It feels like we are in a science fiction horror film and our enemy is invisible and deadly. It is scary!

Sometimes I still can’t believe this is my life.

But it is... It’s real!

 However, we all know that something good comes out of something bad and the situation now is not an exception.


Now that the humans are staying indoors the earth is treated to a much-needed breather from the pollutants caused by human activities. There are pieces of evidence that the earth is healing.

The ozone layer is healing.

Some animals were seen in places they were supposed to be but haven’t been for a long time due to human activities.

God made our homes His little churches. No churches, no problem. God always finds a way to come to us especially in the time of need. 

Many are praying hard now more than ever.

Faith to God was renewed. God is our only hope now.

People become more conscious of their health and what they eat.

Some hidden talents were discovered while searching for something to do at home.

Realizing that there is something you can do to help no matter your status in life.  

By simply staying home you can be of big help already. You are already protecting yourself, your family and your nation. You get to be a hero by just staying at home.

Realizing whose government officials really intend to take their job seriously when they run for their position.

The list could go on. I can still think of a few good things that come out of this pandemic. But no matter how many more I can think of I cannot deny the fact that it’s still not okay out there. We’re still inside this science horror thriller that is not a fiction. It’s our real life.



I want to feel fully happy because, to be honest, I am grateful for so many things.

I am safe at home.

 I'm comfortable.

 My job is not affected by this pandemic at all. If anything, I earn more now than before.

I am healthy though I got a cough and a scare during the first two weeks of quarantine. Thank heavens I feel so much better now and confident that I didn't get the virus. But the story behind that can be another blog I might write in the future.

I get more free time even though I work more hours now, because I have my husband at home to help me out with everything.

I am grateful because my husband is so efficient in most of the responsibilities he assumes. 

 He can go to the groceries store and come home with correct items including the correct brand of my conditioner and feminine wash. 

We have great meals everyday courtesy of the husband.

We have a clean and disinfected house everyday courtesy of the husband.

With all the help I get around the house, I have extra time to read books. In fact, I’ve read 6 books since the start of quarantine.

 I developed my passion for reading psychological thriller books. I go as far as joining a psychological thriller book club on Facebook. 

I finally have time to work out again without interruptions from the little one.

I should be happy and content but I can’t bring me to do that.

I can’t just be fully happy knowing we are not entirely safe.

I can’t just be fully happy because my son is missing out on so many things. There are so many things to learn in the environment and it pains me he cannot explore that now. 

I can’t just be fully happy because my son cannot go out whenever he wants to. He misses the outdoor. He loves the outdoor.

I can’t just be fully happy because not all people have the same worries as me, many of them are experiencing worst.

I can’t just be fully happy because I know some families are suffering from losing their jobs, lives and their loved ones.

I can’t just be fully happy  because many families are grieving all over the world.

I can’t just be fully happy because this is not the kind of world I want to live in.

I never thought I will ever wish for an “ordinary day” or a “normal day” so bad. But that’s my ultimate dream now just another normal day outside this real-life science horror-thriller we're in. 

 So there you have it my okay but not so okay life in the time of COVID-19.

How about you? How are you during this trying time? I hope you get all the support that you need. I hope you are safe. I hope you’ll survive this. I hope next time when I write on this blog again. I can really say that I am really fully happy. That we are free and safe at last.  I’m praying for you, don’t forget that!

 Thanks for being here!

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